You may not know this about me, but I’m a pretty bitter person. Not to the point that all I do is dwell on wrong-doings or something. But to the point that I get angry about certain things and senarios.

For instance, I spend about five years of my life trying to upgrade the image of something … when I left it was on the rise. People signing up to the mailing list because (they’ve literally said this) the design was nice and wanted to learn more. That made me feel good. Felt like I was really making some changes that was going to HELP.
I’ve been away less then six months and the changes I made for the better are being erased one at a time. In less than a year it will look like it did before I started my work. Old style, very plain and (in my opinion) badly designed.

And that makes me bitter. Bitter because I feel as if what I did was never good enough for the powers that be. Bitter because for nearly 5 years I worked like mad to upgrade the designs and feel only to be bashed down left and right. Bitter at the egos that told me I was doing it wrong because “twenty years ago when I worked in marketing …”
I know I’m not the best of the best. But I know my current design trends and I think that my knowledge of marketing is a little more up-to-date than two decades ago.

However, with all this bitterness (this is just one spot .. I have more .. oh so many more ..) I realize that I’m wrong. Yes, I’m wrong to be bitter and angry about this. This was 5 years of my life serving God in the only capacity I know how. Design. God called me away from that ministry and if He has something different planned for it - so be it. I should be happy. Honestly, I should stop paying attention.

But more importantly, God says it greives the Holy Spirit (aka - God) when I have bitterness.

In Ephesians 4: 30-31 it says: “And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.”

You can’t get any more plain then that. Get rid of the bitterness and the anger. You know what else? It’s actually a HEALTHY thing to do! Studies show that when you’re bitter and angry you have more physical problems such as ulcers, acne, migraines .. it just isn’t worth it. Let’s not forget that people don’t want to be around someone who’s always mad!

The Word of God continues in Ephesians with “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” (Ephesians 4:32)

So, God as my witness (literally) - I’m going to try and get rid of my bitterness towards people and circumstances. I’m going to try and let it go. It’s not worth it.