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Dec 27

And it is Guitar Hero III.

While I was home for Christmas (it was awesome thank you) I played my sister’s Guitar Hero. Holy. Crap. I’m a guitarist, so I really didn’t expect much from it - but dag. DAG. It’s probably THE most addicting game I’ve played in ages. I may just get it. Unless - someone else wants to get it for me in the next few days - hehe.

God is good. I know I don’t say that often, but He really is. I realize that people read my blog don’t necessarily believe in God .. but I do. And I think He is a good God. Just. Merciful. He may not do what I want … but really, do I want a genie or a Heavenly Father? With a genie you get 3 wishes, and for better or worse you get them. God, He answers prayer according to how it will affect you, those around you and His will for you. Which is always better than anything I can understand. People get so bent out of shape about God, how God never does anything they want and blah blah blah. Honestly, I think life is harder for them because they don’t do anything GOD wants. Which is always the better thing for you to do.

Seriously.

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Date December 27th, 2007 Filed in General 2 Comments »
Nov 5

So I’m leaving my old job next Friday. It’s kind of surreal. I’ve been here for nearly five years. I’ve sweat, bled and wept here. My son was born while I worked here, bought a house … many memories both good and bad (mostly good) happened while I was here, many in this office itself. I used to practice with my now defunct band GreyHalo here at this office. We recorded half of our only album here. I rebuilt over 75% of the network, installed wifi built all the computers (except for the laptops). I’ve put so much of myself in this office - it’s like I’m leaving part of myself behind.

Surreal. Sad. Almost disappointing.

But I look forward to my new position at Adtegrity. I foresee much fun and growth there. My prayer is that I can become a light where I need to shine. I also pray that my ego will stay down. Since I’ve been “the man” when it comes to design here at Bible Doctrines, it will be hard to admit that I’m not the only computer geek in town.

So, November 9th I walk out of this office. I’m sure there will be tears, some of them mine. Thinking about the end of my employment here really does shake me up. But, God is good. He’s got plans. And I walk into the office at Adtegrity on the 12th and hopefully I can ‘wow’ them.

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Date November 5th, 2007 Filed in General 2 Comments »
Nov 1

I did it. I had a big break down. It was me in one corner, God in the other. I wrestled with my inne-demons .. more like my human nature .. and God was my tag team partner.

Though, it’s funny. I was against the ropes, getting kicked in the groin by selfishness and pride, and did I reach for God to come in and whomp on it? No, of course not. I tried to do it myself. When I couldn’t, I got mad at God for no jumping in - though I wouldn’t really let Him do anything. It’s almost as if He’d come in and I’d push Him away so I could get kicked more.

What I was really struggling with is the fact that things weren’t going my way. Things weren’t going how I planned, or how I thought they should. I somehow convincd myself that God would give me everything I ever wanted: money, toys and an easy life. In fact, the Bible says nothing of the sort. It says that I’ll be persecuted for believing in Him. The ol’ serpent and his pals will try harder to dissuade me from the Gospel. Keep me from prayer, His word, growth and fellowship.

But I realized, believing that I deserve better is a sure sign of weakness and selfishness. My life should revolve around what GOD wants and gives, not what I want and think I deserve.

I pray, as often as I remember, that I’ll not have a selfish mind and heart but a clear vision of what God has in store.

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Date November 1st, 2007 Filed in Spiritual No Comments »